A Time and A Season
For much of my life the phrase “A Time and a Season” has been used as an encouragement to try again at a later date. “That’s a great idea, but there is a time and a season for everything and this is just not the season for that.” But when life continues to be difficult and the stresses continue to mount, is it appropriate for you to continue to hold onto that idea that the time is “not yet” and still on it’s way?
In many ways. I embraced this idea of “waiting” for the right timing if you will, for a long time. After all, it’s in the scriptures isn’t it? But I had this nagging feeling that wouldn’t fade. I wanted so desperately to do it, but I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders and just couldn’t see how I would make that happen. So I didn’t. Well, there is another teaching in the scriptures that I never grasped. If the spirit is telling you to do something, do it! Do it now! Don’t wait until it is easy or convenient, it will never be easy or convenient. If the Lord is asking you to do something, accept his request and get started. Heavenly father always provides a way for his work to be done, ALWAYS. Don’t sit on your hands and wait for the timing to be right, the timing is right now. There will never be a better one. Trust me.
I have felt prompted to work on a blog or book or youtube channel since 2014. I wanted to help others overcome adversity and share how Heavenly Father had worked miracles and was working miracles in my life to become a better person and find true joy despite the struggles I was having. I knew that I had a message that could somehow help at least one person, and in helping that one, it would give new meaning to the trials I had been through.
My idea for the site morphed from personal blogger to mom blogger to youtuber, I thought if I could teach people easier ways to do their kids hair, I might gain a quicker platform and then share my experiences that way. Problem was, I wasn’t super comfortable in front of the camera, I struggled to figure out how to properly light the scene, and then I had to retake the scene over and over if I didn’t get it quite right. I had poor little girls sitting in front of a camera for a very long time. Not an easy task for a little kid. To add to all of that, I didn’t know a ton about video editing, though I had gotten my feet wet with that a year or two prior. It just was very time consuming, and I had a toddler who was into everything.
I’m really not sure why, but there were multiple times I tried to pursue this exact situation, even after adding another baby and a husband who was temporarily living away from me to further his education. But the spirit continued to encourage me to try. I could feel this “Keep trying, I will help you” in my head and in my heart. But I would get to the point that I felt neck deep in something I didn’t know how to finish, and I would give up, back off, and often delete everything I had made because it wasn’t “perfect”. I didn’t realize that the key is to just keep putting content out there and the skills would improve as I went along.
The spirit continued to nag at my heart and mind. Telling me that there was something more out there for me to do. Lives I could impact if I could just make myself available. I expressed my feelings to a number of people. Some I would bring it up every single time I saw them. I am sure it got old listening to me tell them the same story over and over and over again and they never saw me taking action to pursue it. I became discouraged as I realized that my life became more and more busy and difficult as I waited, rather than easier. There never seemed to be time. And then the trials became heavier and heavier and my heart became more and more hardened toward the Lord and his work.
I wanted to have a relationship with my Heavenly Father, and I knew that this venture would help me in achieving that, but I couldn’t help but feel defeated. I was ever the pessimist and filled with doubt. I kept hearing over and over through conference talks and scripture study to “Doubt your doubts” or “Have faith, believing. Doubt not, fear not”. Then there was that talk by then Elder now President Nelson saying “we need women who know how to make important things happen by their faith”. I felt like he was speaking directly to me, and yet I waited. Then during family scripture study I would read about people like Nephi and hear time after time about how, if obedient to the promptings, Heavenly Father provides a way every single time. And yet I still put it off.
Why did I doubt? Why was it so difficult to heed the promptings of the Holy Ghost? I have spent most of my life doubting my ability to do anything, but deep down I knew my Heavenly Father would help me. I could just feel it. Why then did I continue to put it off? I can’t tell you how many videos I have on various devices of myself talking about the experiences I have had and how they have impacted me for the better, or how I was overcoming certain obstacles etc. But for some reason I never put them online.
Well, I have decided that the Time is Now and the Season is Now. No more waiting for the time to be right or for my load to lighten. I hope my time hasn’t run out and that there are still people who can benefit from what I have to say. Even if it’s only one person, I will feel like I have made a difference. Writing is a platform I seem to be most comfortable with, but will keep a platform open on youtube if I ever become more comfortable there.
I am now working on not only sharing my testimony and experiences, but I am seeking out others who have been through hard things that would be willing to share the joy that comes through the pain. The blessings that come through being faithful despite how impossible it seems. People who have truly seen the blessings of God in the midst of the trial. Or even messages to let others know that they are not alone. If you are one of these people, please reach out to me. Send me an email or a private message, lets talk. If it feels like a good fit, I will record a conversation between the two of us (audio only). I will include a picture of you (if you like), you are also welcome to remain anonymous. If you would rather write something for me to share, there are parameters I would like to stay in, but would love to hear from you, reach out to me and let me know.
If you are feeling prompted to do something, don’t ever put it off. Heavenly Father always has a way of working things out for the good of his children if we just listen.
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